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Late Night Musings: “This One is a Fighter”

I went through a large patch where I haven’t wanted to write too many personal blogs. And now the spark is coming back to write.

I will be blunt. Some of what I want to say is going to come off crazy. Just follow me a bit. We will get through it.

One quick piece: Also I am in the running for a position at Pace Per Mile. If you could please stop by: Pace Per Mile and vote I would appreciate it.

Now onward.

If you read the last musings blog, I am defiantly in one of those places that I am putting it all out there to reach my goals; between trying to get the social media guru in me to the next level, trying to make sure running in 2016 is much better then 2015, the Pace Per Mile thing and a few other things which I am not quite ready to bring up in the blog.

But one of the things I have had to figure out is its going to be a fight for me to get anywhere.

If you have followed my blog you know about the health issues that my dad has faced, and I am probably going to get too personal here but I really am to the point I don’t care.

Obesity has been an awful part of my life for the past three years. My dad has been dealing with the consequences of it. Part way through this journey his doctors made it crystal clear, if he would of changed his path we might not of been here.

It’s changed all of us.

He has been in denial for the longest time about it. I think it has been the hardest thing for all of us to handle, the denial that obesity has been the big key to what caused all this.

Do not get me wrong. I love my dad, I always will. But I don’t like what this has done.

I went through my own journey with obesity, and I am lucky enough to continue in “maintenance” for the last five years. I know how challenging it has been, and I know what I went through. I truly became a “fighter”.

The thing is, watching someone go through the journey can truly be draining. You want to be there and support them but to be honest its costly.

I have watched dreams and things I have worked for fall by the way side because this has been my focus. I have convinced myself that going after certain dreams isn’t worth it.

The fight was kind of gone.

Obesity has taken so much of what is important to me.

Because I didn’t stay true to the boundaries I had set.

So many people have encouraged me to go after my dreams and leave this in the past. They have supported, they have cheered, they have been in my corner. But I have let this stop me from making the big leaps.

I had a long talk with my dads social worker who is a rockstar. She said it best when she said “You have done a lot of amazing things, but this has held your full life back for the past three years”


And the thing is, if I can survive the past three years. I can keep going and see where this road takes me, I just have to be willing to channel the inner fighter.

Thanks for following the train of thought. I just needed to put it all out there.

A Special Thanksgiving Letter: Thank You: @PWFCrystalCoast

I already got the chance to write about running in my blog that I wrote for The SF Marathon. You can check that one out by clicking above.

I have one of the craziest familes ever.

And I am so proud of it.

I have brought them up in a couple blogs here and there, but I don’t think I have been able to put into words how crazy the journey has been becoming the social media guru for the Premier Wrestling Federation . The original planned on helping these boys get off the ground and moving on. But as I have been working more with them, I have realized that I actually have a passion for the social media side of the business and I have been wanting to see things happen bigger and better for these guys.

But what I have never expected is that I would end up adopting a family of brothers and sisters.

I have not made it a secret that things have been complicated in my world. More specifically with my family and my PWFTurtlelogodads health issues. There has been so much that has gone by the wayside in the process. But these guys have truly been backing me up and encouraging me to dream bigger and fight for the things that I want to accomplish.

These guys and girls work so hard, and its obvious when I am watching the footage of what they are doing that they truly love what they do. They truly want to be amazing towards their fans in NC and beyond and leave them with an experience that is once in a life time.

But the thing is, without even knowing it, they have really helped me explore a dream come true. It is not a hard fact to follow that I am a huge wrestling fan, and always dreamed about doing something in the business. They took this lonely wrestling fan that was all away across the country and let them steer the ship on the marketing side.

It breaks my heart that the odds are, I will never get the chance to come to NC to see them live. Because I owe these guys a lot more then they know, they believed in me and keep seeing the potential and believing in me. Its been a life saver. I am truly thankful for them this holiday season for being a part of my world and making me smile so many time.

#bibravepro How Rudy Project is Changing the Way I See when I Run.

Note: I recieved these glasses through a partnership with Bib Rave. No other compensation was offered. As always these opinions are my own. Please check out being a Bib Rave Pro

I never thought Sunglasses could of ever make a workout better.

But then again I never knew about Rudy Project.

I got the chance to test out the Rudy Project Rydon Carbon glasses. Right out of the box, you realize these are different from any pairs you will see. They are built for those into the active lifestyle. I really do think these things can outlast the fact that I freely admit that I am hard on all my equipment. Also, they come with a two year warrenty; that covers no matter you might do to them.

To be honest, I have an overly large head. I have a hard time finding the nicer high quality sunglasses that actually fit my head and can stay comfortably. I had actually given up that process. So I was cynical at best about how good these could be for me.

But these are a game changer.

Right out of the box, they fit like they had been meant for me. They are adjustable so they can fit almost any head

Me out on the run with the glasses.
Me out on the run with the glasses.

At .88 ounces they are lightweight, it does not feel like you are wearing anything. I knew it was there, but it was never bulky, it never bounced around. I also never had to worry about sweat dripping down between my eyes.

The Pacific NW Weather tends to be bi-polar. It can go from bright and sunny to cloudy and wet within seconds. I tried them out on one run where it literally happened, and I learned about their polarized lenses that adjust from almost clear to the perfect protection from the glare from the sun.

The way the wrap around you, there is no issues with viability. You can still see everything around you and be aware of your surroundings without having to worry about big bulky frames.

I never ran with sunglasses unless they are the cheap ones you get at race booths at an expo and they had been part of a costume. I just never saw the purpose behind them. But what I noticed when I started to wear them is I was not dealing with eye strain or red eyes. I have had some runs where I come out of it with a major headache because of the sun, and I have not had to deal with that yet since I started training with them.

I get the fact these are expensive, and I don’t usually do reviews on things that are this expensive. But I also realized using these, you get what you pay for. As a Tri-Athlete friend of mine told me when he found of that I got these. “They are truly going to be the first and last glasses you will ever need.”

He was so envious he bought his own pair.

I think these are going to be with me for a long time in my running life.

#miles4meals The Color Run offers a chance to pay it forward in color

Getting messy to help others?

I am in!

The Color Run is offering an opportunity for participants to help donate three meals to families that may not be able to put food on their tables through their #miles4meals movement this winter.

Commit to running, walking, or however you want to finish a 5K. For 15.00; they will send you a complete 2015 Color Run kit, including a shirt, headband, the Shine medal, and two color packs. They encourage you to take pictures using the #miles4meals hashtag.

For every participant, they will donate three meals to organizations like Three Square Food bank to help people struggling to put food on their table.

From their website:

Get Moving. Give Back. Through our partnerships with charities like Three Square Food Bank we will donate 3 meals to feed those in need on behalf of every runner who takes part in The Color Run Miles for Meals Movement. Not only will you be staying healthy this holiday season, but your 5k will literally feed someone who needs it most for a day. It the best kind of holiday math. 1=3. One 5k. Three meals. Let that put a smile on your face and all those around during your run.

You can find out more here: #miles4meals

Late night musings from The Zombie Running Princess: SF Marathon, Sand Castles…. And wrestling….

I have not written one of these late night musings blogs in awhile. The blog has been more about business stuff then anything else as of late; manly because I have had a lot of random things going on in my head and have not really wanted to spill it all out.

Let me start off with the happy news; this week I was asked back as a 3rd year San Fransisco Marathon Ambassador. The

marathon has been an amazing experience; and when I jumped into doing this blog thing they are literally the first company to see my story and really truly believe in it. I already can’t wait to be back. I have learned so much every time I have been there and met so many amazing people. I will be saying a lot more about this in the next few weeks; but mark July on your calendar.

I am already super excited for 2016 in terms of running. I think I will be able to shoo some of the negative 2015 vibes away.

Despite the good news, the last few months I have just been struggling with my confidence as of late. I can’t really put a finger on it, other then I feel like there has been a ton of negative, harried energy around me and I have not been able to beat it back. In conversation with a friend the topic of sand castles came up and how sometimes life comes around and turns the sand castles you are building on its head and turn them to dust. I have been lucky that I have some amazing friends who have been able to help step outside what it is going on and really help try and keep the ship on track.

It has always been my biggest challenge. I need to remember to realize that I can go after my dreams, I can persue whatever it is that makes me happy. I can shoot for the moon. And I need to remember to ask for help when I am drowning in the negative energy.

So I have been working on some things for my future. I don’t want to go into much at the moment, but I am happy/nervous about some of the direction I am taking, even though some people around me are not.

I went off on my personal Facebook about another topic this week. And I will just say this; if you have followed my blog and my journey for any length of time. You have an idea of what kind of role obesity has played and for that matter what kind of havock it has played on my families life. I have said it before and I will say it again. If you are dealing with the journey, if you are struggling. Its worth the fight. It is worth the struggle, it is worth the looking inside of yourself and dealing with the issues. Its so hard to watch someone I love deny that obesity and their choices are at the root of the issue. And I know some of that has lead to my ugly feelings.

Change is hard. But its worth it

One last thought. You have heard me brag a lot on social media about my lovely PWF Crystal Coast. I am proud to be their social media boss. I just wanted to say it once again. These guys just came off onf an amazing show weekend the first weekend of November. I am so proud of what they are becoming and I am so proud to be on the journey with them.

Confidence- The Accidental Athlete: A Relatable Read

Note: I received an e-book copy of this for free through my partnership with Tomoson. No other compensation involved.


When reading Stephanie Atwoods book: Confidence – The Accidental Athlete, the word that keeps coming into mind is relatable.

If you have followed my journey through any length of time. I was never really an athlete through high school. I 4aa98668143a5f73a5161bd7e254e9428a697eedkind of surfed through PE, never really encouraged to find that side. As I started adulthood, I started to drown in my own lack of confidence. Before I started running, I was really unhealthy mentally, and physically. It was a complete accident that we found running, to the point I hated it the first time.

And then I fell in love. It has become my best friend through some of lifes hardest challenges with my dads health issues. I still have people in my life who like to remind me that being seen in public glowing from sweat and out of breath is not “socially acceptable.”


Atwood’s journey goes into how movement has truly taught her that anything is possible. She encourages readers to believe in their own power and strength. She encourages readers to break that stereotype that some ladies are thrown into to, where it is unbecoming to push themselves to the same level as the guys, how its okay to settle.

This is a very quick ready; but for anyone who is looking or that extra dose of inspiration; this is a book you will want to read and keep on your shelf frequently. It is a ray of sunshine in a day that you might be facing a storm.

I am actually looking forward to reading more of Atwoods books. They are a quick easy read for someone who is always in the middle of a book.

You can check out her book here: Run With Style
It is currently 2.99.

One isn’t enough TWO Expresso Bike challenges for @pdxgym

You head me right.

TWO challenges.

The first one is to ride 50 miles this month. Actually you want to ride more then that, but to get your badge and earn your t-shirt. NOTE: DRAGON CHASE DOES NOT QUALIFY.

Road Warrior Challenge


The second one is a West Coast Fitness only challenge.

And its simple.
How many miles can we get in as a team before Thanksgiving?

Ask questions if you need to

See you on the bike.