I have not written one of these late night musings blogs in awhile. The blog has been more about business stuff then anything else as of late; manly because I have had a lot of random things going on in my head and have not really wanted to spill it all out.
Let me start off with the happy news; this week I was asked back as a 3rd year San Fransisco Marathon Ambassador. The
marathon has been an amazing experience; and when I jumped into doing this blog thing they are literally the first company to see my story and really truly believe in it. I already can’t wait to be back. I have learned so much every time I have been there and met so many amazing people. I will be saying a lot more about this in the next few weeks; but mark July on your calendar.
I am already super excited for 2016 in terms of running. I think I will be able to shoo some of the negative 2015 vibes away.
Despite the good news, the last few months I have just been struggling with my confidence as of late. I can’t really put a finger on it, other then I feel like there has been a ton of negative, harried energy around me and I have not been able to beat it back. In conversation with a friend the topic of sand castles came up and how sometimes life comes around and turns the sand castles you are building on its head and turn them to dust. I have been lucky that I have some amazing friends who have been able to help step outside what it is going on and really help try and keep the ship on track.
It has always been my biggest challenge. I need to remember to realize that I can go after my dreams, I can persue whatever it is that makes me happy. I can shoot for the moon. And I need to remember to ask for help when I am drowning in the negative energy.
So I have been working on some things for my future. I don’t want to go into much at the moment, but I am happy/nervous about some of the direction I am taking, even though some people around me are not.
I went off on my personal Facebook about another topic this week. And I will just say this; if you have followed my blog and my journey for any length of time. You have an idea of what kind of role obesity has played and for that matter what kind of havock it has played on my families life. I have said it before and I will say it again. If you are dealing with the journey, if you are struggling. Its worth the fight. It is worth the struggle, it is worth the looking inside of yourself and dealing with the issues. Its so hard to watch someone I love deny that obesity and their choices are at the root of the issue. And I know some of that has lead to my ugly feelings.
Change is hard. But its worth it
One last thought. You have heard me brag a lot on social media about my lovely PWF Crystal Coast. I am proud to be their social media boss. I just wanted to say it once again. These guys just came off onf an amazing show weekend the first weekend of November. I am so proud of what they are becoming and I am so proud to be on the journey with them.