Dear Ambassadorship Programs:
It’s not you, it’s me. We need to step back from each other for awhile.
I have been debating on writing this blog for awhile but I think it needs to be said and it goes back to my desire to be 110 percent honest.
I have had the pleasure of being an ambassador for some amazing programs. They have truly given me a chance to share my story and my platform with. When I started to do ambassadorships it was about using my running and my story to share and inspire people on hey, if I can do it so can you.
But it’s evolved a lot. And I am not certain for the good.
Personally I have been juggling too many and I know it and I have had a hard time telling myself that I am doing the best I can with what I have. I know one company I love that I didn’t give as much attention as I should. I own that, and I am hoping by taking the pressure off that I can start doing this for me again and start focusing the energies on the things I want to focus on.
But part of this to comes from burn out.
I volunteered a ton of hours for certain programs and I would leave events so frustrated that I would either be on a bus crying or in a friends car crying because I felt like I would give 150 percent but it just was not good enough. It’s not supposed to be like this.
Volunteering for me is about giving back and seeing smiles on the faces of the people who inspire me every day and have kept me going.
And I doubt I would be human if I did’t say sometimes the lack of thank you from some of the programs isn’t playing a lot into this. And I don’t need much, just someone saying “We appreciate your hard work.” We all want to feel appreciated and feel like our efforts are noticed.
I am keeping one program and possibly two. I think that will make me a lot happier. I will still get my volunteer time done but I am going to focus on more energy on making a difference again.