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ZRP Random Musings: New Shoes, letting go, and not inspiring

Ready for another Appletini drinking session or to engage into some ZRP tickle butt?

(Yes I am engaging my wrestling loving side again.)

First things first. I have been dealing with tight hip issues lately and I found the bottom of the problem. It was shoes! I was kind of thinking it was shoes but was not certain but I took advantage of going to see my friends at Road Runner Sports and I was defiantly in the wrong shoes. The last couple runs since I got refitted have been my strongest in a long time. I really feel like it might be coming back together. I am in a pair of Brooks Adrenaline and they are my game changers. I feel like training for the marathon might be back on the right track.

And now for the more deep stuff.

A little look at my run from today.
Someone who for sake of this conversation can and should remain nameless called me an inspiration for working on my 6th marathon. I don’t do well with the word inspiration. Maybe I have never seen myself as one because I feel like the turtle that is calm and tranquil under water but I am just paddling. But after the last conversation said person also helped in their own way help me realize that I am chasing what scares me, what pushes me outside my comfort zone. Yes I have ran marathons before, but it feels like I am starting from scratch because its been so long since I have done it, and I for one know how hard SF is. And I have thoughts about what is next but I am not sure where its all going to go.

Call it chasing my unicorns if you will. If I inspire someone because of it that is amazing. Its never going to be a picture perfect journey. For me this is the continued chapters of me following my heart. I still don’t know if I will ever get used to being called an inspiration but it goes back to something that I do not

If you have followed me the last few months you have heard me talk about the fact that I have stepped back from most of my ambassadorships this year just keeping my hands on a couple where the work load was a lot more manageable. It has been a-ma-zing for me. I am so much happier and I don’t feel like I am chasing my tail so much. I am running less this year but I am more focused on running for me and getting back to my strong side. And I am still volunteering for things but I am taking on stuff that fills my bucket. But I went to my first group running event a few weeks ago and it was amazing. I actually got to be social and hang out.

I have had a lot of people talking to me about the last couple random musings blog. I just want to add this. The journey some of us are on is not about a healthy lifestyle. Some of us do not want to be skinny, some of us just want to be happy in our own bodies.

I have more going in my head that might have to be a second musings later. But there is a cat who needs me.