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A little thank you to my favorite “Addiction”

WARNING: This is not a running blog entry. If you are looking for the running blog fun cycle down. (Remember this is my blog and I don’t always do run)

It isnt a secret, the other passion I have outside of running is wrestling.

And two of the biggest reasons for that have been a very certain tag team; The Addiction, Christopher Daniels and Frankie Kazarian.

When I was going through the last few years of finding myself, dealing with the family health issues, and trying to hold it all together. I could watch those two and break out laughing despite myself. There would be some nights I would be laughing so hard that I was crying.

If you watch them you get it. They are just very good at what they do.

But also watching these guys keep going at the level that they do and the fact they keep getting better has inspired me. There are many times that people around me have been pretty clear that I should give up those crazy dreams and goals that I am shooting for. I am too old, I am too washed up, I should be focusing on family, ya know those things you hear.

They defiantly helped to show me that not fitting in the “box” is okay that I can embrace the inner nerd.

I always wanted the chance to meet them to say thank you for inspiring me to continue to push to be better. And I got that chance. (Not without almost tripping over my own two feet. But alas if you know me, if I get nervous I do.)

These two made it a point to make sure this photo happened before I had to bail for my trip back to Portland and could not of been nicer.

I just want to say thank you again to them both for not only inspiring me, just always being awesome towards me, but giving me so many good memories out of my first trip to Vegas.

Why I Run? We Race to Remember

Why do we race?

We Race to Remember.

On November 11, 2017 Race to Remember will be hosting their annual 11K/5K/1K in Vancouver Washington as the kick off the the annual Ft Vancouver Veterans Day Parade. If you are not in Vancouver you can join them honor your veterans virtually. Instead of giving you a traditional preview you can read last years recap Race to Remember: Veterans Day here. The specifics of this years race can be found here: Race to Remember

As I have been more involved in these groups, I have heard more stories then I have space to recount. I have found my why.

I have been lucky.

I have a few close friends that I consider brothers that have served our country. I have seen these brothers share their stories, share the trials and tribulations of being in a war zone, they bring the same strength to their civilian life that they had in the service. They battle demons with a smile and an inspirational outlook. They have also watched helplessly as friends that they served with lose those battles.

I Race to Remember them on this Veterans Day.

Through my work, I have witnessed first hands as service members who have lost limbs in the service found the

The shirt says it all
strength in themselves to be adaptive athletes taking on races some of us only imagine and turn around and serve as an inspiration to other athletes to show what is possible. I also witnessed first hand as that same inspiration helped me face fears I never thought possible to conquer.

I Race to Remember them on this Veterans Day.

I Race to Remember my grandfather who served with the Army in WWII. He never shared many stories of his time, as he helped at interment camps. But he was always fiercely proud of being veteran. My uncle carried on this tradition with his service in the Navy.

I Race to Remember them on this Veterans Day.

Even if you can’t join us, I encourage you to run for the veterans in your life this Veterans Day.

I race to help Race to Remember push their mission forward.

“Race to Remember” is a nonprofit organization “Race to Remember” is the name of our nonprofit, formed in Vancouver Washington 2009 after our founder Claudia Cardenas lost her fiancé Jason Vinyard a 20yr Army Veteran serving at Ft. Vancouver at the time of his passing. “Race to Remember” mission is to support and honor our past and present military heroes. We host several events throughout the year including three races. During every event we host or participate in we remember and honor those who fought for our freedom. Outside of racing we organize military care packages; and engage with the community by coordinating such projects as “Soldier in the Classroom”, “Thank You Cards” and “Books for Soldiers”. Our immediate goal is to form partnerships with local business and other veteran organizations to help us best serve veterans in our communities. Our long term goal is to establish a college scholarship for the Fallen Heroes children and spouses.

Disclaimer: Race to Remember comps my registration in trade for my social media outreach. My opinions are that of my own

Old Glory Relay Returns

62 teams.
Over 4,000 miles ran.
One flag.

This is not your normal relay. The is the Old Glory relay.

From the Team RWB Media Kit:
Old Glory stands for much, in a world with much need: freedom, opportunity, safety, expression, pride, belonging and diversity. The last two, never mutually exclusive, always mutually supportive. This year, as we fly Old Glory across 4600 miles of America the beautiful, we not only look at our colors above, but celebrate our colors within. The colors of Old Glory knit together a fabric of America that is unlike any other, a fabric of diversity and difference bound in strength and unity.

The Old Glory Relay course starts in the beautiful Pacific Northwest in iconic Seattle and will pass through the shadows of majestic Mount Rainier and Mount Hood as it traverses the forests and then the high deserts of Oregon. Old Glory will then cross through the big tree forests of Northern California before heading into the Bay Area and Silicon Valley. Next, we cross through the second largest city in the United States. . . Los Angeles. Team RWB Eagles will connect our two largest West Coast chapters as they run along the Pacific Ocean passing through Camp Pendleton and into San Diego. With one last glimpse of the Pacific Ocean, Old Glory will head east into Arizona, through areas around Yuma, Phoenix, and Tucson; rich with wild west and southwestern history. Next up Old Glory will pass into Texas at El Paso and make the long journey across the full width of the Lone Star State with stops at the Alamo in San Antonio, and Houston, among others. With the Gulf of Mexico to the south, the course will cross the “Mighty Mississippi” River at Baton Rouge and then drop into the Crescent City before mirroring the Mississippi and Alabama Gulf Coast, notably passing by the famed World War II battleship, the USS Alabama. Crossing into Florida, Old Glory will follow the Emerald Coast and the “prettiest beaches in the world,” before passing through the Big Bend region and turning south for the last time. Finally, Old Glory will make her way into the hometown of the Team RWB National Firebase, Tampa.

This will be the second year that I will have the honor of being part of the Old Glory Relay. I will help escort the flag through No-Po (my neighborhood of all things) on September 13th in honor of the people in my life who have served.

I stated in some of my previous blogs how much of an honor it is to run with the flag. Your a small part of something bigger then you can imagine. But a snip-it from my blog from last year.

Me taking the handoff.

The two miles are insignificant at this point. So many cars honked, applauded, yelled their support. I was on one of the less crowded roads in terms of traffic but I think it gave me a chance to take in the entire experience more. The flag that I was holding is on a journey of 4,200 plus miles and will be in the hands of 62 teams that have come together for the same common cause.

This also serves as a fundraiser for Team RWB’s mission.
“Team RWB’s mission is to enrich the lives of America’s veterans by connecting them to their community through physical and social activity.”

One of the neatest things is you do not have to be near the route to get involved with this amazing event.

You can sign up as a virtual runner: Old Glory Relay and for 35.00 you will get the event shirt.

You can donate to the Team at Team RWB Portland’s effort to fundraise: Day 3

ZRP Random Musings: New Shoes, letting go, and not inspiring

Ready for another Appletini drinking session or to engage into some ZRP tickle butt?

(Yes I am engaging my wrestling loving side again.)

First things first. I have been dealing with tight hip issues lately and I found the bottom of the problem. It was shoes! I was kind of thinking it was shoes but was not certain but I took advantage of going to see my friends at Road Runner Sports and I was defiantly in the wrong shoes. The last couple runs since I got refitted have been my strongest in a long time. I really feel like it might be coming back together. I am in a pair of Brooks Adrenaline and they are my game changers. I feel like training for the marathon might be back on the right track.

And now for the more deep stuff.

A little look at my run from today.
Someone who for sake of this conversation can and should remain nameless called me an inspiration for working on my 6th marathon. I don’t do well with the word inspiration. Maybe I have never seen myself as one because I feel like the turtle that is calm and tranquil under water but I am just paddling. But after the last conversation said person also helped in their own way help me realize that I am chasing what scares me, what pushes me outside my comfort zone. Yes I have ran marathons before, but it feels like I am starting from scratch because its been so long since I have done it, and I for one know how hard SF is. And I have thoughts about what is next but I am not sure where its all going to go.

Call it chasing my unicorns if you will. If I inspire someone because of it that is amazing. Its never going to be a picture perfect journey. For me this is the continued chapters of me following my heart. I still don’t know if I will ever get used to being called an inspiration but it goes back to something that I do not

If you have followed me the last few months you have heard me talk about the fact that I have stepped back from most of my ambassadorships this year just keeping my hands on a couple where the work load was a lot more manageable. It has been a-ma-zing for me. I am so much happier and I don’t feel like I am chasing my tail so much. I am running less this year but I am more focused on running for me and getting back to my strong side. And I am still volunteering for things but I am taking on stuff that fills my bucket. But I went to my first group running event a few weeks ago and it was amazing. I actually got to be social and hang out.

I have had a lot of people talking to me about the last couple random musings blog. I just want to add this. The journey some of us are on is not about a healthy lifestyle. Some of us do not want to be skinny, some of us just want to be happy in our own bodies.

I have more going in my head that might have to be a second musings later. But there is a cat who needs me.

A little new feature here: Discounts for You!

Running is expensive..

I know I can’t afford it all the time.

So I am putting a new page on my website of discount codes I pick up on my journey. If you know of one that you want to share feel free to leave a comment on that page.

I will warn you that if its a product I will not touch myself I will not approve it. This manly applies for supplements ect.

Here is the link: Discount Codes for You

ZRP Musings: I Don’t Get Bloggers Anymore

First off, quick update on training for SF. I feel like I am making progress right now. Due to allergies and a combination of things a majority of my running has been on the treadmill but I am okay with it. I am making small speed and distance progress with every run. I am patient, it will all come together. I will do another update later regarding that.

But the main topic of this blog is for me to voice something I don’t get. I will probably offend someone by saying

I was trying to find an Appletini drinking meme, this will do
what I am saying and I may sound like a bully. But I made a promise to get back to the basics this year. And I am doing that.

I won’t call out the blogger in particular. But there is a blogger who posted something the other day about how she is injured and won’t be able to run X event, she does not understand why and she is afraid of letting readers down.

Here is the thing;

She does multiple runs of 18 miles sometimes back to back. She does not take rest days that any of us can tell what so ever. Her eating has made some readers question if she has an eating disorder. By all indications she should of been injured a long time ago. She was living on borrowed time. I feel for her totally. Injuries suck, they derail out goals and plans. (I just dropped out of a race I was supposed to do in April because my doctors was 110 percent against the idea). People freely admit they compare themselves to her in terms of their workouts, their nutrition.

If you are stopping yourself and saying whoa, pull up and have a drink of wine with me. (Or an Appletini, its a wrestling thing)

Reading a lot of blogs like I do, I started noticing a trend. We as healthy living or running bloggers (depending on the ball park) are so hyper-focused on clean eating/bad eating, we beat ourselves up when we are not perfect, we are making sure we get out workouts in, ect. Do we think about the kind of influence we are on people or are we so worried about ambassadorships, ad space ect that we don’t care?

I know when I took myself out of the ambassador game last year it was because I was so busy trying to look good and blow everyone away I was running myself into the ground. Running had all of a sudden become unfun and I was comparing myself to other bloggers. I was not eating the way they did, I was not training the way I should. I kept two (SF and my new adopted Hedstrom Fitness, along with my affiliate stuff)that made sense for my goal where I am at.

If this is what fitness and running blogging is about, I bid you all goodbye now.

Let me be blunt.

I have never considered myself an inspiration or role model. There are some days that I want a hamburger and I walk up to Dairy Queen (live 6 blocks from one, seriously) and get myself one. I don’t do it all the time but I never tell myself I can’t or its dirty. I work with a talented running coach who helps make sure that I am not over training. And I think he was ecstatic when I walked away from a bunch of my commitments.

I was also taught early in my weight loss journey that not only moderation is key, but its okay to give yourself a break. Its okay to indulge, its okay to say “Hey my body is saying heck no today, its time to give it a break”. You just have to make sure you are in balance and it is not an all the time thing.

Could I be thinner, faster, prettier? No doubt, but I am happier in my own skin.

But then again, maybe I just don’t get any of it.

ZRP Musings: Let the marathon training fun begin #runchat #fitfluential

This week basically starts the training cycle for The San Francisco Marathon for me, and the training plan. It is kind of that moment where you realize the next few months are going to be nothing but hard work, doing whatever it takes to get to that goal of the finish line on the Pier in SF.

I think it hit me why I have not done this in awhile. Actually my last marathon was the full two years ago in SF. Not to go into the specifics; I swore off marathons after that point. For me coming back to SF was like literally unfinished business.

I am not certain I have a time goal for this. I just want to be really see the finish line stronger then did the first time.

After talking to a friend today I realized most of this was mental. I have a great training plan from Club Hill Runner (got to give love to my coach) and I am still doing my OCR workouts and I think the combination works well for me and pushes me.

I have been so crazy with my client. But it has been a good thing.

I have been working with the Wolfpack Ninja’s on the promotion of their Ninja event. It has been a challenge for me because I have had to learn how to bring my writing to an event style level but I have also gotten to work with the people who have inspired me and for years as I have watched their American Ninja Warrior journey’s.

I really do love the work that I do. I am spoiled. There are days that I question it. But I am learning how to embrace my skill and talent for it.

I think making the decision to cut back on some of the extra commitments this year as the best feeling ever. I really feel like the focus is back to being me, running this blog for me and just opening the door out to more opportunities. There are some things coming down the pike that I am really happy for.

Sometimes you just have to jump.

More later.

OHHH as an aside, because lord knows I said I was going back to things that made me smile. As a wrestling fan I have never smiled harder.

Those random kind of musings… When it needs to be fun again.

Ill do a full recap on the pacing adventures at the Seattle Hot Chocolate 15K adventures later.

Here is a confession:
Running stopped being fun, blogging stopped being fun, volunteering stopped being fun.

Part of it has to do with just being burnt out on volunteering, and the whole rushing around to try to advertise, market to brands, try to be an ambassador ect.

And as for volunteering, it got to the point it was dishearting to volunteer anymore. The events I was volunteering with just drained the fun out of me. And I honestly didnt feel like I was making a difference. I even gave up one of my absolute favorites this year.

It literally stopped being fun.

The other part, and I hate sounding this way. There are some bloggers who work really hard and deserve to get some amazing opportunities. They are true inspirations and they are the picture of health. And there are some people out there that literally you have to ask yourself if the company really understands what they are doing. Watching bloggers who their own readers are calling them out for eating disorders, or disordered view of exercise, but yet companies flock to them.

The second I started to say no, it felt like the pressure was off and I started to have fun again. I also started to take advantage of my work situation and I have been adding in some modified obstacle course racing workouts which have been a really big challenge, but also in its own way, it has been a lot of fun.

A friend of mine told me several months ago that if I was not having fun, was it worth doing.

What has become really fun to me has been getting more involved with the Hogwarts Running Club. The entire focus is about not only Harry Potter which is a win. But it is about using running to not only improve our lives but the lives of others less fortunate.
We do virtual events to raise funds and awareness for different charities. Each house has their own common room (though I hang out with the Faculty) and everyone motivates one another. We also use the Charity Miles app to continue to push for our running to give more.

Adding to that coming back to The SF Marathon. I did say yes to being an ambassador this year, because it has always been about partnering and working together for such an amazing event. And I really want to have a marathon this year. Its been two years and it is time to go down this road.

Things are starting to be fun again.

And I am ready to share the journey.

Feels Like The First Time… #TSFM2017

Let’s just get it out there. If you do not feel like jamming out with me just skim down just a little bit

I am back for a 4th year as an ambassador and part of the amazing team at The San Francisco Marathon. This is the one I could not give up. This is a special event to me, its the event that taught me so much about myself. It is the event that has always worked hard to put their runners and their ambassadors first. I can not thank them enough for letting me dance one more time.

On top of this it is the 40th year of The San Francisco Marathon

So why am I saying Feels Like the First Time?

I am running the full marathon which is how this adventure started, and I have not ran a full since three years ago when this started. I know what I am up against, I know what is involved and I know that I am in for a huge challenge.

I am changing my training. One of my biggest issues was getting in my strength training. I actually used my work connections to get myself started on a strength training plan (Thank you Yancy Camp) I am using some of the basics of some of the obstacle course world, adapting it for my ability levels and working with that. The first couple weeks I feel like I was making gains (we got hit with the worst winter storm Portland has had in 30 years which has killed my gym time)

Once the weather clears up I will be working a lot on my run training. The one thing the last year taught me is I was not where I want to be in terms of shape so I am putting my focus on that. I think giving up some of the things that have left me with not so fulfilled and happy are helping me

My goal is just to make the 40th Anniversary the return to the marathon. Will think time goals later on.

Dear Ambassadorships/Volunteer Programs: It is not you; its me.

Dear Ambassadorship Programs:

It’s not you, it’s me. We need to step back from each other for awhile.

Love

Me

I have been debating on writing this blog for awhile but I think it needs to be said and it goes back to my desire to be 110 percent honest.

I have had the pleasure of being an ambassador for some amazing programs. They have truly given me a chance to 43527891share my story and my platform with. When I started to do ambassadorships it was about using my running and my story to share and inspire people on hey, if I can do it so can you.

But it’s evolved a lot. And I am not certain for the good.

Personally I have been juggling too many and I know it and I have had a hard time telling myself that I am doing the best I can with what I have. I know one company I love that I didn’t give as much attention as I should. I own that, and I am hoping by taking the pressure off that I can start doing this for me again and start focusing the energies on the things I want to focus on.

But part of this to comes from burn out.

I volunteered a ton of hours for certain programs and I would leave events so frustrated that I would either be on a bus crying or in a friends car crying because I felt like I would give 150 percent but it just was not good enough. It’s not supposed to be like this.

Volunteering for me is about giving back and seeing smiles on the faces of the people who inspire me every day and have kept me going.

And I doubt I would be human if I did’t say sometimes the lack of thank you from some of the programs isn’t playing a lot into this. And I don’t need much, just someone saying “We appreciate your hard work.” We all want to feel appreciated and feel like our efforts are noticed.

I am keeping one program and possibly two. I think that will make me a lot happier. I will still get my volunteer time done but I am going to focus on more energy on making a difference again.