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Feels Like The First Time… #TSFM2017

Let’s just get it out there. If you do not feel like jamming out with me just skim down just a little bit

I am back for a 4th year as an ambassador and part of the amazing team at The San Francisco Marathon. This is the one I could not give up. This is a special event to me, its the event that taught me so much about myself. It is the event that has always worked hard to put their runners and their ambassadors first. I can not thank them enough for letting me dance one more time.

On top of this it is the 40th year of The San Francisco Marathon

So why am I saying Feels Like the First Time?

I am running the full marathon which is how this adventure started, and I have not ran a full since three years ago when this started. I know what I am up against, I know what is involved and I know that I am in for a huge challenge.

I am changing my training. One of my biggest issues was getting in my strength training. I actually used my work connections to get myself started on a strength training plan (Thank you Yancy Camp) I am using some of the basics of some of the obstacle course world, adapting it for my ability levels and working with that. The first couple weeks I feel like I was making gains (we got hit with the worst winter storm Portland has had in 30 years which has killed my gym time)

Once the weather clears up I will be working a lot on my run training. The one thing the last year taught me is I was not where I want to be in terms of shape so I am putting my focus on that. I think giving up some of the things that have left me with not so fulfilled and happy are helping me

My goal is just to make the 40th Anniversary the return to the marathon. Will think time goals later on.

Dear Ambassadorships/Volunteer Programs: It is not you; its me.

Dear Ambassadorship Programs:

It’s not you, it’s me. We need to step back from each other for awhile.



I have been debating on writing this blog for awhile but I think it needs to be said and it goes back to my desire to be 110 percent honest.

I have had the pleasure of being an ambassador for some amazing programs. They have truly given me a chance to 43527891share my story and my platform with. When I started to do ambassadorships it was about using my running and my story to share and inspire people on hey, if I can do it so can you.

But it’s evolved a lot. And I am not certain for the good.

Personally I have been juggling too many and I know it and I have had a hard time telling myself that I am doing the best I can with what I have. I know one company I love that I didn’t give as much attention as I should. I own that, and I am hoping by taking the pressure off that I can start doing this for me again and start focusing the energies on the things I want to focus on.

But part of this to comes from burn out.

I volunteered a ton of hours for certain programs and I would leave events so frustrated that I would either be on a bus crying or in a friends car crying because I felt like I would give 150 percent but it just was not good enough. It’s not supposed to be like this.

Volunteering for me is about giving back and seeing smiles on the faces of the people who inspire me every day and have kept me going.

And I doubt I would be human if I did’t say sometimes the lack of thank you from some of the programs isn’t playing a lot into this. And I don’t need much, just someone saying “We appreciate your hard work.” We all want to feel appreciated and feel like our efforts are noticed.

I am keeping one program and possibly two. I think that will make me a lot happier. I will still get my volunteer time done but I am going to focus on more energy on making a difference again.

#OldGlory Relay: A Once in A Lifetime Experience to Support @TeamRWB

I think the best way to describe this experience is once in a life time.

Yesterday I had the honor of running 2 miles with the American Flag as part of the Old Glory Relay. Team RWB explains this best in their media kit.

From inspiration, strength, or freedom, each person who touches
this year’s Old Glory has their own story of CONNECTION to the symbol
of our great nation.
Throughout the 4,216-mile journey across the United States, the participants
and supporters of “America’s Relay” will come together to honor the sacrifice
of thousands of Americans who have fought for America’s freedom, and make
a public display of support for veterans as they return to their respective
communities. This amazing experience allows Team RWB to spread our mission
of enriching veterans’ lives, recruit new members into the organization,
and generate donations for our core programs focused on leadership
development and engaging veterans and civilians within their communities.

This is the first year the flag made an appearance in Oregon. The flag actually started on Sunday, September 11 at Microsoft headquarters in Seattle before making it to Joint Base Lewis-McChord and then Woodland Washington where my local Team RWB crew took charge.

Our smaller group of three runners picked up the responsibility at Ridgefield. Our group of three runners had decided to do the 6 miles in 2 mile solo increments with me taking the last handoff.

My handoff was at the top of a hill in the middle of farm land. I was really worried because I am on the slower side of running, and I am still getting my legs back under me a bit.

I took my handoff and I think it hit me at that point that this was not any ordinary running experience. I had said

Me taking the handoff, thanks to Team RWB for this amazing photo.
Me taking the handoff, thanks to Team RWB for this amazing photo.
before I was running for the people in my life who are veterans who especially in the last few years have been such a support system and helped me keep my head together when things did not seem possible. These people have done so much to support their country.

The two miles are insignificant at this point. So many cars honked, applauded, yelled their support. I was on one of the less crowded roads in terms of traffic but I think it gave me a chance to take in the entire experience more. The flag that I was holding is on a journey of 4,200 plus miles and will be in the hands of 62 teams that have come together for the same common cause.

Because I was dropping some of the social media coverage, I was able to get over to the Interstate Bridge and cover the runners crossing into their first state. Watching the flag come across the bridge up the hill on the interstate bridge was just truly an experience that I will not forget.

I have been trying to put into words what this whole thing means to me, but I don’t think words do it. I think the best way to talk about it is show the pictures. Thank you to my dad for getting some of these amazing moments.

A look ahead to @seattlemarathon and knowing when you think too big

My must do fall race is coming. But….
I thought way too big.
Last year after Seattle Marathon I was

When I was super excited about doing the full marathon
When I was super excited about doing the full marathon
feeling really good about my running and where I was at in my goals and I was thinking way too far ahead and I signed up for the full marathon with every intention of making it my 6th full marathon.

I was OUT of my mind.

If you read my post race recap for the SF Marathon I made it no secret.

I got super sick after SF to the point I went two weeks without running, working out or for that matter wanting to do anything.

Whatever I ended up getting killed my cardio too.

By the time I got back to running late in August my legs felt crappy and heavy.

This was going to be a short training cycle anyhow, so I have made the decision quite quickly to downgrade to the half. I can already tell that it has been a good decision. The training cycle had gone a lot smoother and I have had a lot more fun then I would of if I was trying to push out a full on the cycle.

The Lake Washington Sunrise best part of the course.
The Lake Washington Sunrise best part of the course.
I love the Seattle Marathon half marathon. It really gives you some of the best of Seattle. From traveling around Lake Washington to the famous #whathill at mile 8 to being able to come through Memorial Stadium to finish. It is truly a special event, the course support is truly second to almost any race.

But the thing is the race is super challenging. Anyone who has taken on mile 8 hill AKA “#whathill” knows what I am talking about. It also goes without saying how challenging the Arboritum

I have not decided on a goal yet for this race. Mother nature tends to throw her own challenges at this race. I tend to want to go into this race to have fun and really just enjoy it and use it to see what else needs to be worked on.

I encourage you to join me on any of the events. You will truly love your #BlackFriday weekend in Seattle. Let me know if you need a discount code.

ZRP Musings: Self Doubt Still Kills Me

I have not ran away from this place.


I just have not been feeling all Zombie Running Princessey as of late.

But lets talk about a few things:

Dad’s home. If you have followed me on social media for any length of time you know my dads been in and out of hospitals for the past three years. I am excited to say he is home and doing pretty dang well. We have hit a few bumps in the road but its expected. Each day gets better.

Self Doubt Kills: I have been in a bit of a personal transition since dads been home and since I have been more focused on career and taking care of myself instead of taking care of the things that tend to take my attention. I have been saying no a lot more and been more focused on my goals instead of everyone elses. And I think that fear of letting other people down has been problematic.

I have always had an issue with self doubt in my head. I dont think the problem will ever quite go away. 2a4cd721fde84f1432fca6c4d339e60210c2b8047ed40e7357c5f79f790655dfI think a lot of it is I never saw myself as the one pursuing success. I so love what I do at Mud Run Guide, I love what I do at PWF and I am driven to be better. But I always go back to the girl who was a secretary, who had no further vision.

I think that has been the biggest thing, despite coming so far, I will always see the before me. I know who I am, just sometimes I need to remember to embrace the hell out of it.

The thing is, I have had a lot of good help, especially from a few of my “brothers” to realize that I have the talent to take it forward even when I don’t see it.

I am getting there, but it will always be my biggest challenge.

I will talk more about running soon, but my plan to just focus on SF and Seattle was a SMART idea. think I am more focused on getting better on what makes sense. I am still pacing (actually pacing one of my faviorte races this weekend.)

More later, just wanted to throw out in the open why I haven’t been blogging all that much.

Dear @SeattleMarathon- I just can’t quit you.

**Note, if you read my ambassador application for Seattle Marathon from last year, you know where this came from. I had to do it in the same vein**

Dear Seattle Marathon-

I just can’t quite get over you.

I said I was going to only do you once.

That was 2012. (And you are still my marathon PR)

But I keep coming back for more.

I actually got a photo of #whathill
I actually got a photo of #whathill
Your course is truly spectacular, especially the views of Lake Washington. But it is also challenging (Can we say #whathill?) and makes you push yourself to go harder then you ever have before. I love the tunnels and the constant echos from the runners trying to cheer each other on. I can’t get over how amazing it is. It makes me want to keep coming back for more and keep seeing how hard I can push.

Your volunteers are amazing and they really come out to support the runners and make their experiencing better. They truly have an energy that makes you want to run harder and faster.

The expo is always one of the funnest expos to go to every year because it is so well organized, and it allows runners to learn about all the area has to offer without feeling crowded in. Not to mention the fact that I think the goodie bags are always the best every year.

I keep speaking your praises everywhere I go. You know me; and you know how willing I am to use my social media reach to keep telling people how amazing what you do is. I will help when you come down here to spread the Seattle love. I was proud to serve in 2015 and it would be a honor to come back in 2016.

No matter what you decided, I will be back. Because to be blunt, I just can’t get over you. I can’t get over how much you remind me of how strong I am and how able I am to run.

Much Love

Late night ZRP Musings; I hate the snobs

I did not plan on writing but there is an article going around the running world that makes me ragey.

Dear Patrick at Run Steady-

You make me ragey.

In your article Can’t run a marathon under 6 hours? Don’t run a marathon. you make it perfectly clear that the marathons are for the elite.

For the record, I am not a 6+ marathon’er. I am in the 5 hour club. (My PR is 5:25 in Seattle). Some of the best zgi8wand most inspiring people in my life are sub 7’s.

I am a former Portland Marathon course marshall. I was always at the cut off point for people to start taking the side walk (the post 6 finishers) and it has not been due to lack of training. If anything they have worked just as hard and there are a lot of marathons that allow them to be able to continue.

Honestly, I think you would be surprised at how many people really there are in the back of the pack. Race directors are seeing this and work

This is the comment that really got to me.

“Agree with most all the points you made. Would love to see more of an effort to protect the sport of marathon. Doing 26.2 at a walking pace cheapens the sport and does not create long term runners or cultivate safe running”

UGHHH! Where do I start?

The whole idea that walking cheapens the sport is ridiculous. I have made it known for years I am a die hard run-walk Galloway method girl. It has helped me stay almost injury free. The sport for us is different. Our sport is to be a better version of ourselves. For me as a pacer to, it is to help and motivate those who want to finish.

It just boggles me that there is so much snobbery out there.

Running is truly a sport for everyone. Not just those who can rack sub 10 min miles all the time. Its for those who want to find their fearless (had to do it, I am a 261 Ambassador), their strength and how amazing they can be.

Short blog. Just wanted to get that off my brain because the more I read the comments.

The more ragey I get.

Random ZRP Musings: “Clean vs. Dirty Eating”

I know I have been lax but the first 45 days of 2016 has been kind of crazy in a good way. We will get to that in a second.

Let me vent.

Part of the reason I have not been blogging is I have been totally inundated with blog posts from other bloggers talking about New Years resolutions, throwing around the “clean eating and anything else is just bad and dirty” or they are posting workouts and then after they are posting meals that are so small and tiny that my brain is sitting here going WTF.

Some of these bloggers are promoting disordered thinking. One example in particular, after a 14 mile run, eating and4305229 promoting baby food with a little bit of veggies as post long run meal?

And people flock to them like crazy. It scares me, because I use to look at these people as inspirations. I used to beat myself up if I wasn’t on plan. Some of these people are truly eating disorderd and promiting to their readers and it just sends me raging.

Maybe it is just me and the way I was trained, there is a balance. There are some days, screw it. I want a piece of pizza and I go for it. I don’t have guilt about it. I know I have a calorie budget and I fit it in. I don’t eat the entire pizza, I enjoy a couple slices and a salad. Also being from the NW I really like beer. I don’t beat myself up over any of it.

Could I be thinner if I was strictly clean eating? Probably. But my body seems to be perfectly happy where it is at, and more importantly I am happy where it is at.

Also a lot of these people are running insane miles or workout so much that I am asking myself how their body holds up to it?

It goes back to the fact that from the early days I had a trainer teach me about balance. About having faith in myself to make the right decisions and looking at the big picture.

Like I said. Maybe I just don’t get it.

And a lot of these people are so over the top on exercise. Doing 10-15 miles every couple days on their run or 2-3 hours at the gym. I know I am committed to my run time, but when I read these I start raging because I know if I did that my body would rebel. My body needs it’s rest and rehab just as much as it needs to work out.

It scares me people are encouraged by it.

I just realize how long this blog was…. I will do a part 2 later.