I hate fitness blogging.

Hate it.

I used to love it. I used to feel connected it to it at a deep level. I used to feel like I had a story that inspired people. I also felt connected to the community. I also loved my brand ambassadorships and felt pride the companies trusted me to carry their brand banner.

Then things started to change.

Bloggers have become more cut throat to get sponsored posts, ambassadorships and other agreements. Well known fitness bloggers have said to me “Well if you would just work out more, be a little faster, eat healthier, ect, maybe companies would do more with you.”

Sorry, not going to sell my balance, my sense of self or anything else for a piece of the pie.

Companies are now flocking to influencers that obviously have disordered thinking on their eating or working out. I wont mention the company but a company worked with an influencer who is on a restricted diet where there is no way on gods green earth she would ever use their product.

Where did it go all of course? I thought fitness blogging was supposed to be more about using out influence to inspire someone to get off the couch, to inspire someone to find the happiness in their life.

I don’t think anyone is to fault. I think as bloggers those shiny little tokens of sponsored posts ect are nice. The money is nice. But I tried chasing those little tokens and all it got me was burned out. And I really wish companies would watch who they deal with. Paying someone to do an ad about beer that does not drink beer is just wrong on so many levels.

Anyhow. As for me, I have dropped all my ambassadorships but one. I came home to Skirt Sports. This one is not about the money. If you have read any of my blogs you know they have been part of my story since the beginning and I stand with their #RealWomenMove philosophy. You don’t have to be the strongest, fastest, most social media connected. They believe in the balance in a women’s life. The women I serve with juggle real working lives, with staying active, families, friends and everything. They are true inspirations, motivators, and motivators.

I am still running but I am running more for me this year. I am also going to do an OCR. I figure I spent two freaking years working in the field its time to actually do one. (I will be at Rugged Manaic in June at PIR partially for my work) I am running SF again this year but not as an ambassador. I am going to support the Hogwarts Running Club with all my heart. I will be running just to enjoy it. I am eyeing an Ultra for the fall, but I have pacing responsibilities so I have not found one I love.

I am also not race volunteering other then for a couple of races I do love. Race volunteering started more about how much work companies could jam out of me and it never felt like enough. I have been focusing on volunteering for things that fill my bucket. I am a proud volunteer at the USO here in Portland. Serving our troops and our families has been an amazing experience.

You will still get blogs from me, and I might still do reviews but I am not going to touch something I won’t use in my day to day life. I want to be back to my social media being the chalk board of my journey and all the things I have learned along the way. I have a few blogs that have been on the back burner about other goals I am working on so they may happen soon. I am aiming for 2018 miles on my feet in 2018, rediscovered my love for spinning.

Lets see where the journey takes me in 2018.