Pull up an Appletini (Yes, if you are a wrestling fan you know what the reference is from)…..
When I sat down to write my “Why I Run” piece a couple weeks ago. I did not expect it to be so cathartic or therapeutic. I really just wanted to share the what got me started on this crazy journey.
And I see it in the evolution of my blogging. When I first started to share the racing journey (before I crashed the you know what out of this two years ago) I really was just talking about the battle with my weight and honestly all the luggage that I was carrying, and then it was how running changed me and I wanted to get faster, thinner and fitter, then we talked a lot of products and then it kind of circled back towards the things I have learned while being on this journey.
Just like running. I started this just to lose weight. Then I became (and okay still am a bit) a bling whore, and then the ambassadorships and using those as a chance to share my story. Now I am at a point that it has circled back to the point where I do it to try and help people like I was helped while exploring new places and challenges a long the way.
Its all about the evolution. Even though I hate change in general and have been trying to get in myself back in that comfort zone box lately (before you say anything, I will be the first one to admit I had a crisis of confidence again. Sometimes things just suck.) , seeing the words spill out on paper (or on computer, whatever suits your fancy) helped me realize that, you know what. Things are always changing. I am always being challenged. Even when I do not realize it.
Speaking of challenges. Someone I respect. (I shant say who) challenged me to get my trail shoes back on and see the world from the trails. It does not even need to be in a racing form, just a chance to see my running world through a different lense. Last week I spent a good two hours on the trails here in Portland and it was amazing. Its a workout without a workout.
I don’t know how to explain it. I am evolving professionally right now to. I defiantly feel like I am finding my voice as a social media manager. But I am also finding that I know where I can be better and trying to find ways to improve.
But real talk… Sometimes it still sucks.
Sometimes you get told no way too much.
Sometimes you just make stupid decisions.
Sometimes you get told you suck.
Sometimes you get told to get your ass back in line doing what people expect you to.
But the evolution continues.