Ill do a full recap on the pacing adventures at the Seattle Hot Chocolate 15K adventures later.
Here is a confession:
Running stopped being fun, blogging stopped being fun, volunteering stopped being fun.
Part of it has to do with just being burnt out on volunteering, and the whole rushing around to try to advertise, market to brands, try to be an ambassador ect.
And as for volunteering, it got to the point it was dishearting to volunteer anymore. The events I was volunteering with just drained the fun out of me. And I honestly didnt feel like I was making a difference. I even gave up one of my absolute favorites this year.
It literally stopped being fun.
The other part, and I hate sounding this way. There are some bloggers who work really hard and deserve to get some amazing opportunities. They are true inspirations and they are the picture of health. And there are some people out there that literally you have to ask yourself if the company really understands what they are doing. Watching bloggers who their own readers are calling them out for eating disorders, or disordered view of exercise, but yet companies flock to them.
The second I started to say no, it felt like the pressure was off and I started to have fun again. I also started to take advantage of my work situation and I have been adding in some modified obstacle course racing workouts which have been a really big challenge, but also in its own way, it has been a lot of fun.
A friend of mine told me several months ago that if I was not having fun, was it worth doing.
What has become really fun to me has been getting more involved with the Hogwarts Running Club. The entire focus is about not only Harry Potter which is a win. But it is about using running to not only improve our lives but the lives of others less fortunate.
We do virtual events to raise funds and awareness for different charities. Each house has their own common room (though I hang out with the Faculty) and everyone motivates one another. We also use the Charity Miles app to continue to push for our running to give more.
Adding to that coming back to The SF Marathon. I did say yes to being an ambassador this year, because it has always been about partnering and working together for such an amazing event. And I really want to have a marathon this year. Its been two years and it is time to go down this road.
Things are starting to be fun again.
And I am ready to share the journey.