First off, quick update on training for SF. I feel like I am making progress right now. Due to allergies and a combination of things a majority of my running has been on the treadmill but I am okay with it. I am making small speed and distance progress with every run. I am patient, it will all come together. I will do another update later regarding that.

But the main topic of this blog is for me to voice something I don’t get. I will probably offend someone by saying

I was trying to find an Appletini drinking meme, this will do
what I am saying and I may sound like a bully. But I made a promise to get back to the basics this year. And I am doing that.

I won’t call out the blogger in particular. But there is a blogger who posted something the other day about how she is injured and won’t be able to run X event, she does not understand why and she is afraid of letting readers down.

Here is the thing;

She does multiple runs of 18 miles sometimes back to back. She does not take rest days that any of us can tell what so ever. Her eating has made some readers question if she has an eating disorder. By all indications she should of been injured a long time ago. She was living on borrowed time. I feel for her totally. Injuries suck, they derail out goals and plans. (I just dropped out of a race I was supposed to do in April because my doctors was 110 percent against the idea). People freely admit they compare themselves to her in terms of their workouts, their nutrition.

If you are stopping yourself and saying whoa, pull up and have a drink of wine with me. (Or an Appletini, its a wrestling thing)

Reading a lot of blogs like I do, I started noticing a trend. We as healthy living or running bloggers (depending on the ball park) are so hyper-focused on clean eating/bad eating, we beat ourselves up when we are not perfect, we are making sure we get out workouts in, ect. Do we think about the kind of influence we are on people or are we so worried about ambassadorships, ad space ect that we don’t care?

I know when I took myself out of the ambassador game last year it was because I was so busy trying to look good and blow everyone away I was running myself into the ground. Running had all of a sudden become unfun and I was comparing myself to other bloggers. I was not eating the way they did, I was not training the way I should. I kept two (SF and my new adopted Hedstrom Fitness, along with my affiliate stuff)that made sense for my goal where I am at.

If this is what fitness and running blogging is about, I bid you all goodbye now.

Let me be blunt.

I have never considered myself an inspiration or role model. There are some days that I want a hamburger and I walk up to Dairy Queen (live 6 blocks from one, seriously) and get myself one. I don’t do it all the time but I never tell myself I can’t or its dirty. I work with a talented running coach who helps make sure that I am not over training. And I think he was ecstatic when I walked away from a bunch of my commitments.

I was also taught early in my weight loss journey that not only moderation is key, but its okay to give yourself a break. Its okay to indulge, its okay to say “Hey my body is saying heck no today, its time to give it a break”. You just have to make sure you are in balance and it is not an all the time thing.

Could I be thinner, faster, prettier? No doubt, but I am happier in my own skin.

But then again, maybe I just don’t get any of it.